Good Riddance

I'm really hoping that's the last of it—this pregnancy's final eff you. I would not wish my experience on anyone and I cannot wait to feel normal again. I have been back home since Tuesday afternoon and apparently everything went well. The doctor removed a piece of placenta the diameter of a tennis ball from my uterus. I lost about 500 ccs of blood during the procedure. That, coupled with the excessive bleeding I've had for the last few weeks, has left me feeling a bit under the weather. And I look like crap. But I've been trying to eat lots of leafy greens, whole grains, and tofu to help me recover. And I am drinking my water.

But for some reason, the recovery from this seems to be worse than after delivery (and the D & C I had then.) Perhaps it's because I started to get an infection? Who knows... In any case, I'm still taking it easy, as it feels like someone's punched me in the ovaries. And I'm really, really tired. I'm not complaining—it's much better than I felt when I went in for the procedure. That morning, I felt like I might die. Several hours before I was due to go in, I started having severe pain (comparable to the last few hours of labor), chills, faintness, and vomiting. I was crawling to the bathroom. So I'll take this any day.

I've been told I can go back to my "normal" activities after a few days, or when I feel up to it. But I can't get in the hot tub or take a bath (showers only)—it's pretty much the same info they give you after having a baby, but I'm not too keen on having to go another six weeks to see the Dr. before he gives me the full "ok."

And while I feel lucky that this didn't turn out worse (because, let's face it, I could have lost my uterus or even my life), I'm also really pissed. I have no intention to wallow in self-pity... but honestly, I don't think I can take much more. I'm trying to remain chipper, but all I really want is to sleep for more than three hours, to be able to go for a run, and to eat large portions of food while continuing to lose weight. Is that too much to ask? :-)